This week as been tough, I was never expecting or anticipating any of the things that did happen to me. Have you ever felt like just hiding under the covers, where everything is safe. I wanted to hid out so no one could find me.
I had every intention of sleeping in last week, but life started to become real to me. I had a constant reminder from my mom to go to my college to buy books and check on some of my scholarship forms. (moms you can’t live with them but you sometimes can’t live without them).
To make a long story short, lets just say that things didn’t turn out the way I had planed them to go. I was upset that I didn’t qualify for my scholarship because I didn’t take the required amount of hours. (lets not get into all the major details).
So as I am driving back home from school, I started thanking God and praying for understanding for this situation. To be honest I was scared, how was I going to pay for books and a quarter of my tuition.
It really got me thinking of how many times we get under the covers or a situation wanting to comfort ourselves, instead of letting God be our comforter. We might think that we have it all set and planed out but sometimes God has to intervene and change things up so we can see the bigger picture.
That theory can also apply to relationships of any kind. There are days like Wednesday when I wished there was someone to be there for me, to take my hand and comfort me, to listen to all my issues, give me guidance and advice when I need it. I think I even said out loud don’t I deserve all of those things to be happy and be in constant care of a significant other.
But reality came fast and Gods silent words came rushing like a river.
Waiting for Gods timing is rough for us humans. We want everything now and done to perfection. I was reading 2 Peter this morning and it reminded me that if we continue to wait on the promise of God then we wait on His perfection for our lives.
The Lord isn’t really being slow about his promise, as some people think. No, he is being patient for your sake. He does not want anyone to be destroyed, but wants everyone to repent. (2 Peter 3:9 NLT)
I find myself in this secret hiding place saying what I have is more than enough, and adding a companion right now would only add to the amazing things that I already have in my life!
Even though I wanted love, comfort and guidance from a person I haven’t met yet. I found all of those things from the friends and family I already have and that’s worth more then any guy any day!